Recharge

So far I am very intentionally making this summer all about a recharge. I need it so desperately after such an incredibly hard year and so could my sweet girls. This house we thankfully live in and logistics of my moms passing has a to do list a mile long. I am slowly tackling pieces of that but also giving myself a lot of grace and learning how to just let myself be. Just being, either alone, with my amazing girls or even sometimes with friends can be really quite beautiful. And hopefully my tank is slowly recharging bit by bit, piece by piece, day by day. 

The girls and I have stayed up late and slept in a whole bunch. We have all slept alot and obviously needed it. I started therapy for the grief and have absolutely loved it! It’s kinda fun to note that I do it over zoom from my car in the garage so that I am actually totally alone. The three of us have cooked together, binged HSMTMTS-2 together and worked on several house projects together. We have had Sunday dinner at the Whitney’s a bunch, swam over there and had late night chats. We have gone back to driving around to nowhere like we did during quarantine and I even bought a real life book to just read for fun! We’ve done tick tocks, cuddled, pranked eachother, met a baby possum, had the girls friends over, gotten ice cream, and turned ourselves into cartoons. 

The girls went to two birthday parties, I went to a birthday dinner and Kellie finally took Keagan to get her nails done as her birthday gift which she absolutely loved! We had a fun family dinner to celebrate Addie graduating high school (she happened to be visiting)  and Kellie’s birthday. And the girls had some great times at Young Women’s activities not to mention all the socializing they manage to squeeze in during and after church. 

The Thayne’s gave us free passes to Big Rivers Water park one day and we had a total blast in sun! And we had another fantastic day going to the Astros game with the Whitney’s! We even went back to the movies for the first time to see Into The Heights































We had a very humbling experience as so many people from our ward showed up to help move all of the things from my moms storage unit into our garage. We had way more trucks then we even needed and so many hands that the job was done in 30 minutes! It was a beautiful reminder that we are loved and supported. 

And finally,  I got a giant bolt of recharge by being back in the Temple after it being closed for so long during the global pandemic! Oh how I’ve missed that place! Keagan, Riley and I were all able to go last week with other youth in our ward and it was downright glorious! Riley did 10 confirmations, Keagan did 5 baptism and 5 confirmations and I was just SO thrilled to be there with them! I knew my parents were also thrilled their granddaughters were at one of their favorite places on earth and they even sent their light beam in the pictures we took afterwards! Then yesterday I was able to go back with my friend Chelsea to do an endowment session. I had such an incredible experience half way thru realizing without doubt that my parents were both waiting for me in the next room! I could even see them in my minds eye standing there, my mom with her hands clasped and my dad next to her with his arm around her shoulder. Just being there and feeling their love and the love of my Heavenly Father surround me was the giant recharge that filled so much of my tank. 

And after all that I still felt like I spent a significant time on the couch or even in bed, yes even my moms bed where I sleep now, just being and just trying to recharge. So far it’s going well but I sure have a long ways to go. There is definitely no time limit on theses types of things so I’m here for the long recharge. Bit by bit. Piece by piece. Day by day.